good and bad mixed. bitter feelings for summer plans. i think i'm more angry than i anticipated. parties that i went to. parties i haven't been invited to. and maybe wouldn't go but maybe it just feels nice to be asked. summer plans. future plans. no plans. no caring. no compassion. i miss friends. and Oregon. and yet i smiled tonight through the sadness.
Highlights of the day: Henry calling me at 2am!!!! A walk along the lakeshore, Tea with Sudeep and Amanda, among other friends, IVCF worship and teaching, feeling the warmth of the sun, going to Erin's 21st birthday party. (Happy Birthday Erin!! I hope you had fun tonight! [there should be a link to your blog here!]) AND:

I am pleased to inform you that your application to participate in the 2003 ACM Tanzania program has been approved by the selection committee. On behalf of the ACM staff and faculty involved with this program, I would like to congratulate you. The program dates are July 23 to Dec 7, 2003.

do i stay or do i go now?