i still love portland. every time i come back i never want to leave. but i really need a job. starting nov 5th i'll be unemployed, and that seems so soon with three weddings to fill up my time in between. i feel like i need to start saving up for something, but it's undetermined what that something is. a big trip. a house. a car. an excape.
two things have been occupying my time and not much else. 1) work 2) reading. i haven't even lifted the phone to call people. on the one hand i really want to see old friends, but on the other hand the lazy part of myself just wants to lounge at home. in my beautiful house and beautiful yard. with my family. and feel alone. because really, if they cared, wouldn't they be the ones to initiate once in a while? but that never seems to happen. and then i get mad at myself, because even people who do initiate i haven't called back. i just want some time to rest. i don't want to drive anywhere. i want to bike or walk or take the bus. just because i can drive doesn't mean it's fun, or that i want to.
i want to get back into the exercise mode. i feel like running every day and biking and swimming and skipping and all that, but all i've really done is walked a few miles to and from and during work. but not much else. i need some motivation. i want to go running with claire around the reservoir like we used to do. and then down to the hawthorne fred meyers to try on swimming suits. the old neighborhood was so good.
i need a hiking partner. an adrenaline partner. anyone up for it? seriously.
i want to visit all the parks in the portland metropolitan area. looking at maps all day long and geocoding streets with trimet has made me realize that i really don't know portland as much as i thought i did. there's so many new places that i want to explore. and i would like to bike/bus/walk it as much as possible. which means i need a good bike and to buy a bike lock. i'm going to start biking the 10 miles to work each mornign.
ok the library computer time is up. time to get off.